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Kichidi:

ide ayyuntundi...
You are moving towards idealism and away from materialism...

to give you a perspective:

Materialism claims that minds aren't enough to explain the reality, and that another "stuff" has to exist. That stuff is the unthinking, unfeeling matter which forms everything in existence, even minds themselves. --> So you were craving for materialistic things like car, big house etc

Idealism is the belief that the reality is contained entirely within conscious minds. It can be the mind of you, or the mind of God, or the mind of others. Or all of the above. However, there is nothing outside those minds. --> Once you realized this, happiness, satisfaction etc takes precedence in your life and your materialistic view becomes narrow.

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